Today is a day of celebration. A day of thanking God for his continued provision. A day of celebrating new things to come. A day that we've been dreaming about, and thanking God in advance for. Today, Ben got a job! A real job! I am so excited. He starts Monday.
We now have the this logistical issue of figuring out what to do with Aaron while I work in the mornings. A while ago, when I felt that God was telling me to get a job, I had a very hard time with "letting go" of Aaron's care in the morning. He was with daddy, which was good, but he wouldn't take a bottle. I was telling God one day that "if only Aaron would take a bottle, I would be okay with all of 'this'". God spoke very clearly to me that if He provided a job for me, He would also provide for all the little things that go with having a job (like my baby being fed). That afternoon, Aaron took a bottle for the first time.
Here we are now, 4 months later. I am choosing to not freak out. To not doubt, worry, or fear. I believe that with God's provision in our jobs, He will also provide someone to care for our little man. I am praying for "no guilt", as we've never had anyone else care for any of our children before. It's not ideal, but I know that it'll be okay. God cares more about my family than I do, so I guess I'm at a spot where I just need to trust Him for everything.
And now, back to celebrating! I'm not sure what we'll do to celebrate tonight, but we'll have to do something! Yep.